Welcome to my Dark Little Corner of the Web.: October 2015

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Back to the Future Day

Thank Fucking God this day has come and gone......

I was soooo sick and tired of hearing about it. Don't get me wrong, I like the movies too (the first two more than the third) but, the ignorance, and stupidity of it all just irked me.

The biggest thing that bothered me about it was, Back to the Future TWO was the movie that had to do with 2015, but all people talked about, quoted, carried on about, etc. was the First movie? The one that had NOTHING at all to do with 2015. If you are going to carry on like ignorant, uneducated morons, at least talk about the correct fucking movie.

The other thing that has always bothered me is they way people carry on about the DeLorean. I personally happen to like the DeLorean, as the DeLorean. I would love to add one to my garage and NOT modify it to look like the car from the movie. The first thing I would do is ditch that shitty 130 HP Peugeot engine, for a General Motors Supercharged 3.8L V6 from a mid 2000's Pontiac Bonneville SSEI or Grand Prix GTP. Then fins a nice set of 5 Spoke wheels, thats it. I swear IF I were ever able to add a DeLorean to my stable, and I was out somewhere and someone said anything about Back to the Future to me about it, I would tell them to Go Fuck Themselves.

A stock DeLorean (aside from the wheels), is a beautiful car, even by today's standards.

Even when I watch car restoration shows, and they are restoring a DeLorean completely factory stock, they still make back to the Future jokes, Why? What does that movie have to do with a stock DeLorean, Nothing!

When you see a 1976 Mustang Cobra II, do you say "look the car from Charlie's Angels", or when you see a 1986 Dodge Daytona Turbo Z do you think of Dee Dee McCalls car from Hunter? A 1970 Challenger remind you of Vanishing Point? No.

Enough Ranting, I got candy to eat.

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Console Online Multiplayer

I was playing Destiny the other day on my Xbox One, when I realized, Online multiplayer just isn't as fun or the same as it used to be.

I first got on Xbox Live back in February of 2007, when I bought an Xbox 360 which was bundled with Need for Speed Most Wanted. I also bought Tomb Raider Legend, Burnout Revenge, F.E.A.R. and Condemned Criminal Origins as well. The first game I played online was Burnout Revenge (Very Fun Game). I remember being in multiplayer lobbies, and having actual conversations. Talking about the game, or other games, or life in general. There were for the most part, normal, reasonable, educated individuals. We would also see when each other would be online, and have gaming nights as a group, I miss those people.

One of the things that I absolutely enjoyed about playing against actual people online was, the competition. I had played through a bunch of the races in Burnout, where the AI was only so competitive, and after half to three quarters of the course, you were out in front for the rest of the race. I remember there was a 5 race series online, where another gamer and I swapped placing first and second all the way through the series, it was awesome, and lots of fun.

Then, I decided to play online with F.E.A.R., which is an awesome First Person Shooter (and one of my absolute favorite games made), and in my opinion, is a million and a half times better than any Call of Duty. I immediately fell in love with this game, and it's online community, and to this day the year and a half I spent playing that game online remains my absolute favorite online gaming experience. It is also where I met one of my best friends online, he lives in PA, and I in MN, but we became fast friends, and a great duo online. We got to the point where we were number 1 and 2 on the Xbox Live leader boards for F.E.A.R., and would take on just us two vs six others in Capture the Flag, and win!

Fast forward to October 2015: I currently have my Xbox Live settings to all communications blocked except people on my friends list, which has less than 10 people. It's sad, just sad.

Why is this? Well, the online community in general has gone so far down the toilet, it is just pathetic. So many unattended 8 year olds screaming obscenities into the mic, for no other reason than they can because some worthless parent is using the Xbox as their babysitter. Don't get me wrong, I am not against blurting out a good hard FUCK here or there, I mean it is a great adjective to use to express frustration, but seriously, it is really bad online. Or all the people calling each other homos, fag, etc.. I just don't need to hear that shit constantly.

Then there are the music people. I love music (if you are a follower of my blog, you are fully aware) and enjoy listening to some music when I am playing online, but I don't feel the need to share it with the whole lobby, or sing to my fellow teammates. Seriously people, have a little common courtesy and respect. You also have the people who are playing online in a room with their friends, family or whatever, and feel the need to carry on a conversation, which we have to hear one side, turn off your mic asshat!

Speaking of mics. Turtle Beach makes very nice headsets for online gaming. I love my Turtle Beaches I have for the 360 (too bad they wont work with my Xbox One, Oh Well will buy another set), when playing online multiplayer it really helps to hear where people are. I can tell if they are in front of or behind me, to the left or right, hear a grenade rolling, they are awesome! But, the mic is also overly sensitive, so when using them, Courteous players turn the volume down or off on their television, otherwise the Turtle Beach mic picks it up, and broadcast it back through the mic.

Overall online gaming can be, and is generally fun, but I find myself playing more and more Single Player campaigns these days, Forza Motorsport 6 is great, and I am having lots of fun. Wolfenstein the New Order and The Old Blood are both great games in this regard as well. I do miss the old days though, when people where actually decent online, worked together, and just more pleasant to interact with. However, these days the normal, reasonable, pleasant, educated individuals seem to the minority, and that makes me sad. But, it is just a symptom of the degradation of today's society. That underground bunker is looking better and better everyday.

That's my bitch for tonight, have fun y'all!

Monday, October 26, 2015

Update: I'm Alive!

I haven't posted in 3+ weeks, Wow. You would think since I have not worked since Sept. 30th, I would have plenty of time to post. I have been busy, looking for a job, going to interviews, playing my new Xbox One, Watching Movies and TV shows via Netflix, DVD's and Blu-Rays, and actually writing.

When I sit down to type these, I generally have a rough idea in my head of what I am going to rant about, share, show, etc... And just start typing. Being that it has been nearly a month, I started typing and realized I had a lot to carry on about, and if I tried to jam it all in one blog, it would have been quite the long blog. So I narrowed it down to one subject, and will sprinkle the rest of the subjects/posts out throughout the rest of the week.

On to Today's Topic:

I originally started this blog to get myself back into writing. I currently have 2 unfinished writing projects, I haven't touched in several years. The first is titled "Book I will never Finish" on my computer (and backup copy on my flash drive), which is an autobiography I started back in January of 2009, and haven't really touched since mid 09. I plan, if I ever get back to this project, to end it in August of 09.
The second is presently untitled, and is a Murder Novel, told in the first person, which is the one I have started working on again. I originally started on this one, as a way to vent my frustration, anger and pain I was harboring regarding my second ex-wife. I fucking hated this lying, backstabbing, two faced fucking lying cheating cunt so much, I was letting it affect me for a long time after I left her, that it was a way to work out those feelings, and pain. My plan was to finish it, self publish it, and send her a copy to hurt her. But at some point, I let go of the pain, the anger, and the frustration, which made it hard to write a book about murder, when the passion to commit the crime was gone.

Now, after some time has passed, I have a lot of expression I want to put into the novel, and I can be more objective and not as nasty and violent as the first draft (which was/is in my head) had been. Which ultimately, will make for a better story.

Whether or not, I get this published professionally, it is a project I want to finish for myself. Just to be able to prove to myself, that I can do it. I may even self publish the novel, if I finish it, as that is something that is pretty common today. I have been listening to a self publishing podcast, to get a little insight and what not into helping me write a better book. There are people who make a living with this. However, it is mainly electronically.

I am absolutely, positively NOT a fan of "e-books", and will never buy one myself. I have remained firm that I will never own a Kindle, Nook, etc.. or read from one. There is nothing like a physical copy of a book in your hand. In my opinion, two of the best smells in the world are New book smell, and Old book smell. A paperback book is convenient to carry with you, where as an electronic device is not. You don't ever need to charge a real book.

Unfortunately (to me), the e-book market is huge, and a lot of people read them regularly, while as a reader myself, I find this revolting. But as an aspiring author, is something I would need to consider if I were to actually publish a novel. Would I want to alienate a large market from reading my novel? Would I want to turn down that stream of revenue? I would like to think that if it were good enough, that people would buy a physical copy. But there are probably plenty of people completely opposite of me, who will only buy e-books.

At present that line of thinking is far in my future, we will see how long I continue to write, or if I even finish. It is hard to dedicate time to just sit down and write, you have to be in a creative mood. Most of the time I get the inspiration when I am just driving somewhere, or sitting somewhere no where near my computer, so I try to store what I thought of in my head for later dissemination, but a lot of the time, I forget, maybe I should start carrying a pad and pen. Sometimes I have started writing, wrote 2 paragraphs and stopped. Other times I have sat down and wrote an entire chapter.

Well, enough rambling, I see I carried on even with this small topic. If I finish this novel great, a personal goal for myself. If I were to actually get it published, either professionally of via the self publishing route, I will of course keep all of you, my loyal blog readers posted.

If I were to actually sell enough to make a comfortable living....